Day 54

'One of Many Failed Attempts At a Hobby', Pencil on Paper

Something that I think were all guilty of at some point or another is the overwhelming urge to try and integrate something new into our life. This happens because we find we want to keep up with the latest fads and crazes for fear of being left behind, sometimes it occurs because we find we want to further ourselves intellectually and creatively and sometimes it's merely that we feel that if we can do this thing it will make other people view us in a different light. The only problem with this is that many of the skills that we attempt to develop we do so as we believe that they will be seemingly easy, however the reality is rather to the contrary. The fact is that most new things are difficult to grasp and maintain, the result of this for the most part is that once we find something to be more difficult than we first perceived we give up. So if you take a few moments to think back over your life thus far, I'm sure that you'll be able to find more than a few occasions were you have made a promise to yourself to do something a little out of the ordinary only to break it when you found it to be too tough... instead coming up with any number of  obscure reason so as to justify your obvious failure. It is something that constantly plagues my mind whilst taking part in this project and my constant fear is that, like with most of the other hobbies and obsessions I've had before, as my enthusiasm wanes and apathy takes over will it be discarded somewhere to gather dust like many of the things that has come before it?... Will I be foolish enough to let excuses that I conjured from nowhere inhibit me from completing what I set out to do?

Perhaps though I should attempt to think about this form another angle... if I look at the drawings and indeed the text as a cathartic process, one that helps to exorcise that apathy demon that has caused me to disregard many other projects, concepts and ideas I once deemed vital. The project then could be an opportunity to rekindle some of those lost, failed or forgotten ideas and finally get round to starting to do more of things that I've always wanted to do. It would be a fairly small step to ensuring that less things get resigned to the scrap heap, however it's important to consider that many epic journeys started with a few small steps... who knows maybe it can lead to me making a giant leap towards something else.