Day 120

'Couldn't be arsed', Pen and Marker on Paper

Been having that general feeling that I really couldn't be arsed doing anything lately which is worrying on many levels, just think I've hit a bit of a funk of late. It's that kind of feeling that i would liken to when you need to  tidy your room, it is something that never gets dealt with until something more important comes up, then all of a sudden we occupy ourselves with that task as a means of avoiding that which should really be taking care of. Luckily the feeling hasn't affected my drawing so far mainly as it's kinda become second nature,  it's becoming so ingrained in my routine that I barely remember doing it. So much so actually that there have been quite a few mornings that I've awoken and immediately though, 'awww... fuck! I forgot to do my drawing yesterday'. Then spent the guts of 15 mins trying to recall everything I did the day before to ensure that I did in fact complete a drawing at some stage, all the while frantically trying to bring my PC to life to check that I haven't made a complete balls up. I'm just hoping that something important comes up so that I can then preoccupy myself with so that I can address the minor apathy that has been affecting my motivation of late.

Day 119

'Murphy', Pen on Paper

Just a quick 10 min sketch tonight of my house mates gecko that some of us have affectionately named Murphy ,due to him eating baby food like Murphy in RoboCop. The reason why it was only a 10 min sketch is due to the fact that allow he never moves and was sitting perfectly still for a good 15 mins before I even begun, as soon as I began to draw him he decided to then move. I could almost swear that he looked directly at my before doing a 180 and strutting off into the undergrowth piled in the corner of his glass cage, it's not a pleasant felling when you realise the you just got owned by a Gecko.

Day 118

'Micro Korg', Pen on Paper

Having the ability to play a musical instrument has always been something that I have a strong urge to do but never really focused long enough to do so, even after being offered free lessons on guitar, piano and drums by numerous friends over the years. My only real foray into the music world was Christmas passed when a house mate and myself set up a fake band called the 'Santa Flaws' to play a few Christmas songs. Recently there have been vague rumblings about a re-union so I think it's time for me to revisit my thirst for developing some musical talent and help get the band back together for some more musical escapades.

Day 117

'Lamp', Pen and Watercolour on Paper

Light is something that is very important in drawing, it's something that I'm becoming more aware of over the course of this project also as any drawn image is essentially built from light and shadow. It's the relationship between the two that give an image it's sense of depth, it's texture and decides it's form, more importantly it's the understanding of the two. This is something that I aim to develop more over the course of this project, the hope is the more I draw the more enlightened I'll become as to how to use these elements more effectively to create an image based on what ever the subject matter will be. It should also become a case that as my understanding increases so to will the technical skill with which I draw, at least that's the hope.

Day 116

'Wallet', Pen and Marker on Paper

We seem to have a preoccupation for creating objects to contain numerous smaller objects for the various different facets of our daily routine. The wallet being a perfect example, it holds our money, bank cards, loyalty cards, identification, receipts from items bought years ago that are reaching the end of their self life, cards and scraps of paper with the numbers of people whose face or relevance we can no longer recall, photographs of those people that we are never likely to forget. It's again another means for us to confine the clutter in our lives to a smaller area and generate the illusion that we are in some sort of state of organisation. However when it comes time to actually access something in particular it never seems to be exactly where you thought it was, instead you spend what seems like an eternity in a blind panic rifling though ever other object you own containing multiple smaller objects in order to find that one thing that you really need at that moment. So even with all the things that we own which are used to create an element of being organised we somehow always end up as lost as when things are left in complete chaos.

Day 115

'got a few things to iron out' Pen And Marker on Paper

I really do have some things to iron mostly a lot of text to catch up on for the last week or so as taken on some extra work but will be off soon and plan to work through it all, so text updates to follow later this week.

As I said I've been doing a little extra work on the side and have finally got it finished which is posted under Day 107, also getting back on top of all the missing text for the last few days finally, so things are running a bit more smoothly again.

Day 114

'get the measure of one's self', Pen and Marker on Paper

It sometimes important to take stock of things look at your own shortcomings and see how you can make a change. This has been what the 365 Draws has been all about thus far and as one of the things I found most disappointing was how I hadn't been doing any work since leaving Art college. It is frustrating to have a desire to do something but to make inane excuse after inane excuse as to somehow convince yourself that there is a justifiable reason for avoiding that which you want to do. It is something that we all do, and what I seriously recommend is taking a little time to do one of those things that you have always really want to do in any kind of context, even if it's merely for a few days, a few hours or a few brief moments. All it does is confirm once and for all that this is something that you were meant to do or something that you have now done and you can lay the beast to rest so to speak. As everything has been going well so far it also gives me the appetite for more, it has made me once again consider the other notions, ideas and ambitions that have bounced around in my head for a while and there lays the possibility of what to do next which is immensely exciting. Possibility is all about that feeling of what can I do next rather than why It's not feasible to do it now.